Currently Playing Pretty Hate Machine By Nine Inch Nails see related

Everything's Wrong
by XxBrokenHeroxX

Wash my eyes
We're exposed
Taking everything I know
Look away
And betray
So you can start to grow

Take our minds
Fill the holes
And steal away our souls
But don't give in
Feel your sins
Decay life from these roles

In this world of hatred, sanity's gone
Why is everything so wrong?
Paper smiles and ignoring the cons
Why is everything so wrong?

I

LOVE

!!!!

Am I goin cRaAaaaAAaAAaaazzZZzaaaayyyyYyYyY!?!

What's wrong with me? For the past few days I've been seeing former loves. Not seeing as in talking with or anything, but, ya know, just seeing them wherever I go. I've seen a former love at work once, and, idk, it just sadened (is that a word, looks funny) me. It's not like I still have feelings for her, but just seeing her there got me depressed.

I also saw that fuckn' whore that I had a fling with. Of course, whenever I see her she's always with some other guy. Seeing her didn't make me sad, it made me mad. >: (

ALSO, i saw this girl at the store, I use to have a crush on her throughout grade school. Me and her were cool with each other, but I was too much of a loser for her to like, in that certain way, I guess. Seeing her made me sad as well. I don't know why. :( I also had a dream about her that very night too. We were together and a lot of our friends (friends from grade school anyway) were all hanging out with us. Then I woke up. I admit, I was depressed when I woke up. And I feel so bad too, because I DO have a girlfriend right now, and I love her more then ever. But before I gone on with that I had ANOTHER dreams about me and one of me and my g/fs friends. Me and that friend were together, and, well, just together. I soon woke up and felt confused. I don't and never had any feelings for this chick, but why was I dreaming it??

Why have I been seeing all these girls that I liked, used to like but now hate, and had a major crush on? Why?? I love my g/f, and we've been together for the longest time, so why am I being taunted by former loves and crushes. I don't understand anymore. They're taunting me, even from the safty of my own room....I don't know what to do........

SUPERMAN THE ASSHOLE!: PART III

"World's Finest" indeed....

HEY YO!!!!!!!

^_^ What a good day yesterday was! The first Valentine's Day with a g/f. (For reasons why look at the post before this). It was awesome!! Everything went perfect too. It was a nice cold, rainy day, which made it kinda of romantic.  First Juli came over to my house and I gave her the gifts I bought for her (a card, a giant pink teddy bear, a scented rose, a heart-shaped box of chocolates, and a CD I burned). She gave me a box of chocolates too @_@ (even though I told her i don't care for candy). She also got me a Marvel Triva Game. O.o I found that very suprising, but really cool none the less. Then we got dressed up and we went to Mallards (a very fancy resturant) It was both our first time being there and we both enjoyed it. They had really good service there. They took our picture for free and even gave us a lil heart-shaped box full of candy. : O The food was awesome too. EVEN THE GUESTS THERE WERE GREAT! We sat by this older couple and they were really polite. They offered to take our picture too. lol.

After dinner we went to the theatres. We ended up seeing the movie "Hitch", which was really good too.  It was nice sitting in the seats, with my arm around my hunny. :D After the movie we went to this lil ice cream/donut place called "Sandy's". We got some ice cream and then drove to our special "spot" in town that no one else knows about. It was cool sitting in the car, listening to the rain, and just being there with her. After we had some "fun" in the car, we went back home. What a perfect day it was. I couldn't be more satisfied with how everything went. I love Juli so much. ^-^